Sam Trial 1

Sometimes, the only way to be seen is to leave. I don’t know if that’s really true, but there are moments in my life where it felt like it was.
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‎I’ve been in places where I was there, sitting with people, talking, laughing even but inside, I still felt invisible. It felt like I was part of the background. I’d try to be there for them, try to matter in some way, but it didn’t always feel like it reached them.
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‎And then when I stop showing up, that’s when things change. That’s when people notice I’m quiet. That’s when they ask where I went. That’s when I suddenly have space in their thoughts, even if I didn’t have it when I was right in front of them.
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‎It messes with my head a bit. Because I start thinking maybe I only matter when I'm gone. Maybe my presence was never really felt the way I thought it was.
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‎And I hate that feeling. Because I don’t want to be remembered in my absence. I want to be seen while I’m still here.